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2012-02-27T22:18:00.001+08:00

It's not the same without you .

2012-02-12T18:26:00.002+08:00

Stayed over at Jovellaaa's house last night . Went over in the evening . Actually , i miss all my godfamily members . It has been 7 years and still counting . They're simply my love (: Without them , all the joys and laughter wouldn't be created . Miss all of them ! Studied for 5 hours ? Study since 8pm till 1am . This is so madddddddddd . First step is taken . Every steps accumulates . I can but i'm just so lazy to take the steps . Went home around noon . I'm dead tired . However , gotta start my 5 hours again later . Hopefully success !

2012-02-10T23:49:00.002+08:00

心受伤上。

2012-02-05T20:09:00.002+08:00

It's birdyyy's birthday (: Went to tent over @ ECP with zhanpeng and her boyfriend ! The night is awesome . Just that some childish kids keeps disturbing us . Really annoying . Bought her a smurf cakeee ! We all slept at around 4am plus . Early in the morning , got woken up by the stupid taiji people . They played the music freaking loud just right in front of us . All of us was so pissed off . Didn't have enough sleep . What the shit . Somemore the people are so annoying kept saying about us . Irritating shit . After packing up , went to swensens for our lunch also as to celebrate birdyyy's birthday part 2 (:

2012-02-02T22:28:00.001+08:00

Guess God put me in this test . I can do it . Can i ?

2012-01-28T10:50:00.001+08:00

Celebrated 2nd day of Chinese New Year @ Jovellaaa's house . They came over my house bainian first then headed off to jo's house . Played blackjack and i lost like $10 . Oh My God ): However , I simply love them , like hell loads . Without them , i've no idea how to survive . They're my life . I love themmmmmm (:

2012-01-23T23:54:00.005+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year 2012 !
So excited to get angbaos ! I want moreeeee (:
It's a brand new year , i wanna have a good start ! I need to chopchop soon .
Cannot drag anymore ! JIAYOU JOYCE . DONT GIVE UP !
Headed over to grandparent's place for angbao collection . Hohoho .

Grandfather cutting Grandma's birthday cake . I hope she enjoys up there !

I love you and miss you granny !

My beloved family , first family photo without my grandmother .
Had lou Hei , it was delicious ! How i wish she could taste it ):

2012-01-21T01:26:00.003+08:00

I'm struggling . In life , love , friendship , studies . I lost you . It's life . I'm still stuck at that point . We both are just lying to ourselves . At this point of time , we may not want anything more plus we do not know what future have for us too . Even though , i knew things are really kind of impossible , but i still live in it . Hoping one day , it will come true . Will it ? I hurts , i know . I'm sorry .

2012-01-15T14:24:00.003+08:00

It's monday again tomorrow . Another week has gone . It's quite long now but it passes so fast . Bored dead man . Most homework undone still , fuck my life .

Tired , is the only word that can describe everything that i wanna say .

2012-01-11T20:29:00.001+08:00

你会回到我身边吗？
我知道错了，请你原谅我。

2012-01-08T23:52:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to myself .

Had celebrations with my love ones (: Drinking and pool .
Awesome time ! Love ya all .

2012-01-03T20:51:00.002+08:00

It's the first day of school today ! Actually it's like a normal tueday to me . However , i can't believe five years just passed like this . It's just too fast . How can someone forget about the one you love that fast ? You forgotten about me . It hurts me so . People kept asking me why , why do i get emotional easily . It's not me that doesn't want to move on , memories are the one who kept stabbing into my heart and bleed . You're worth than anything else . I keep telling myself , move on . Why do i bother when you don't even give a fuck . Why am i so stubborn . I don't know either . I felt my heart dead , forever . I need replacement .

2012-01-02T16:15:00.002+08:00

School tomorrow , i'm not ready . Not in any study mood . Hope tomorrow will have something light . Happy to see my friends once again , but not books . I'm looking forward to saturday and sunday ! Hah , this week haven pass yet looking forward to weekend already .

Buy me a black rose , i'll love you .

2012-01-01T18:32:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday Patrick (:

First day of 2012 may still be like a normal sunday to me , but it's a important year for me . Hahahas . A year of challenge for me . I'm a O level student now ! I hope i made the right decision . Choosing whether to study ite and secondary 5 was so stress . Really hope it will be good . But thinking of going back school on a tuesday plus there's ART , TOTALLY TURNS ME OFF ! OMG Hate art still . ALWAYS . In a few days time , it's my birthdayyyy . Still in the mist of planning where to go for celebration . Stay tune for updates !

Goodbye 2011 . All of the 酸甜苦辣 memories will go with you as well . Though i couldn't bear to , but it still has to pass . I miss everything , everyday that we've been through . I may not be with you now or perhaps in future , i'll still be waiting silently . Stubborn am i , i still couldn't put everything down , especially you . People says time heals all the pain and scars . I hope so too .

我好想你。

2011-12-31T17:49:00.024+08:00

It's New Year's eve . Tomorrow is gonna be a new start of the year . I wouldn't want to go back to school for secondary 5 , definitely . I'll be dragging my feet to school everyday . But thinking that i'll be able to see my classmates and friends , makes me wanna go school immediately . I enjoyed this holiday much . Met up with friends whom i never see long ago , go out with clique and godfamily . And this holiday , i spend most of my days @ student care . The kids makes my day after all . I've learn alot during this whole holiday . Thank you my friends ♥♥♥

Jovellaaa and fanny : 9 years of frienship and counting . Everything that you guys have done , will never be forgotten . Spending christmas with you girls and many more . You guys are the best , forever the best . Next target , we gotta work towards O level together yeah ! Though we may have less time gathering , but we could still meet up for study ? Hahaha , all the best in everything you girls do ! I love you all ♥♥♥

Yuxin babe : Hey ! 4 years of friendship and counting yea ! First knew you in badminton . HOHOHO . Miss those times we spend together , having lunch or recess time at the staircase together and studying together and etc . Many memories ! 2012 gonna be a tough year for me , but i believe i can do it ! After O level , we should go out man ! Never go out with you before ): But after O level !! MUST UHHH ! HAHHAH . I'll work hard yeah . Wait for my results ! ILY ♥

Ms Then : Thanks for letting me have such a memorable holiday @ scc . Though next year couldn't come back really often , but i'll definitely miss you teachers as well as the kids . Hopefully the kids doesn't give you hell in 2012 ! HAHAH . See you soon !

Miss Low , Ms Wong , Miss Jeo : Hey teachers ! I'll not be so active in scc next year already , due to studies . HAHAH . Will still come back for a visit when i got the time . Happy teaching (: Ms Jeo ! Sad that you're leaving scc . Must come back to visit ya ! See you soon !

Natasha junior : Hey girl ! May not be seeing you around scc anymore . Sad ): But no matter what , you gotta work hard yeah . Secondary school life is different from primary school already . Gotta do things on your own , own time own target . Always strive for the best in everything you do . It's still only the start , enjoy alright . Definitely you'll enjoy secondary school life better but missing primary school life either . We could meet up to go back scc tgt one day ? Hah . Anything just text me alright (: All the best !

SCCTP - Annual camp 2011 with CJCs !

Finally , the 4 of us are able to meet up ! I think it's always me who couldn't make it last minutes . I'm so sorry ! Had steamboat with my girls . 4 years of friendship and counting . I will never regret meeting you guys in my life . Though Jane and Cheryl may not be with us for next year journey , i'll still miss you guys . Meet up soon to study or gathering yeah ! Study hard , don't give up ! ♥♥♥

Cheryl babe : Hey girl ! Don't be too sad , we're all still studying together for O lvl this coming year . Must work hard alright . Be serious alright ! Have the heart to do it . When you're serious , you do things better than me leh . So must do your best in everything you do in future . Don't ever give up half way . If you have any problems or somethings that you want to talk about it personally , i'm just 9 digits away . We will always be there for you my dear . I love you ♥ .

Joyceee twin-sis : Babe ! So fast , one year gone like this . Must really treasure everything that you have . Sometimes , you may doubt yourself whether have you make the right decision . It's okay . Think again , perhaps you may find another way out . Not everything has it's dead end . I'll always be there for you , i'm just 8 numbers away from you only ! Don't bottle up everything , it's SO NOT healthy . 2012 gonna be a busy year for us , i gotta study and you gotta work . There's still time , just that time doesn't wait . It all depends on you . It's in your hands , treasure and cherish . I love you manyyyy ♥♥

ZP bro : 9 years of friendship and counting ! Wheeee . You're the best brother that i had . You know everything as clear as the water . You gave me advices , tells me joke , scare me till cry (I will always remember that) . Everything . Thank God for putting you into my life . Though sometimes we may get angry or idk what over small things , but still we're god-sister & god-brother yea ! I'll work hard for my O's , won't let you disappointed (try my best)! Good luck for your new job ! MR TAYYYYY ~ Love ya kor ♥

Javius Bro : HEY GAGA's BRO ! You gave me the most crazy gaga world when overnight-ing @ your place . Really had loads of fun . We could even laugh non stop ! HAHAH . Remember ? Thank God for letting me know you through Cell Group . Must study hard yeah ! It's gonna be a busy year . Perhaps during june holiday we could meet up for relaxing . HAH . " IT's GAGA TIME " . Meet up really soon yeah . Love ya bro ♥

2011-12-14T00:59:00.002+08:00

She's my lesbian .

2011-12-12T23:35:00.003+08:00

2011-12-11T15:34:00.002+08:00

I'm just acting as if i'm so strong .
But the fact is , i'm weak .

2011-12-09T01:30:00.003+08:00

SCC > Otah factory > Curry puff & kueh factory > Mushroom farm > Compass mall > Yakult factory .

Woke up early prepared and meet kor to student care together . As usual , everyone is so excited for the trip . Every factory that we visited , we all did learn something new , definitely . Enjoyed more in the mushroom factory because the guide cooked us mushroom and it's freaking nice okay . Partially because most of us were hungry at that point of time . Bought some mushroom back and going to be chef for tomorrow's lunch perhaps . After mushroom farm was the yakult factory . It's my second time going there though . Drank 2 yakult cause was rather bored while watching the video they play . Hah . Walked around for a tour and after awhile , headed back to scc . It was a tiring day though . Stayed till 9pm to help Ms Then to settle some of her admin stuffs . Time really flies . Didn't even realize that it was 9pm already . Left and went to shop around ntuc with kor . HAH . Damn jokeee but both were cute .

2011-12-05T16:06:00.002+08:00

I'm sick , yeah expected it . Last night was like hell for me . Vomitted , headache and fever etc . Last time , you took care of me . Now , without you i got to take care of myself . I hate every feeling that i'm having . I want to get well soon .

2011-11-30T00:23:00.002+08:00

Excited maxxxx ! In around 12 more plus hours , it's 6507's BBQ gathering . EXCITED LEHHH ! Hopefully it will be a successful one . Rain , please re-frame yourself from coming . THANKS ALOT MAN !

2011-11-29T02:19:00.001+08:00

I'm not as strong as you think .

2011-11-28T14:42:00.002+08:00

Stayed over @ Jojo's house last night again . Sad Fanny couldn't make it , she ain't well ): Get well soon my baby . Had been going in and out of her house . That's like my second home man . Awesome . We had heart to heart talk till we both fall asleep . Went to airport to fetch her bro , he's back from china . HAHAH . So miss him . I know Jo does also . So tired . Really , totally drained out .

Girl , everything will be alright . I will always be there for you no matter what . Have faith and confidence . Jiayou . You're always the one who makes me smile and laugh like nobody's business . I want the crazy cheryl whom i used to knew . I love you babe !

2011-11-26T00:16:00.002+08:00

Everytime when i see people getting married , i'll be thinking when will be mine .

Who will be the Mr.Right . How could i wish it would be you .

I can't get over you , never will i , i guess .

I just want you . Only you .

2011-11-24T22:26:00.004+08:00

My wish is , i still wanna be with you . Please .

2011-11-22T23:57:00.002+08:00

Staying at Girlfriend's house until thursday i presume . I've decided to move on already . No point holding onto something that wouldn't be happening . I hate to believe the truth and fact because i can't believe i just lost everything just like this . I'm not happy . I feel like it's the end of the world . I just wanna say that ' I regretted alot . But still I love you ' . No matter what i maybe still suffer from all the flashbacks and everything .

I miss you alot my love . Put me in your heart still because i'll always do the same .

2011-11-22T01:48:00.002+08:00

Enough of the pain that i'm suffering . Does time really heals all the wounds ? It has been so long , long enough but everything just doesn't seems to be off my mind . No matter how hard i tried to , my heart will still bleed once in awhile . If it was so easy like everyone said , there wouldn't be anyone crying madly for what they had lost . It's just thousands of knifes stabbing into my poor heart . I gotta move on . They doesn't want me in their life anymore . So what's the point of wanting them but they aren't doing their job .

MOVE ON JOYCE .

2011-11-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

I wish i could get drunk and never wake up from drunkenness . Why must it be like this . I gotta forget everything . November and December , please be good to me . I don't wanna live like this .

I NEED TO GET OVER .

2011-11-19T02:31:00.002+08:00

To Girlfriend-Ho :

Thanks for everything you have done . Our friendship has been nine year plus and counting . This two months is really a very upset month for me . You and my other babies cheered me up whenever we had gathering . You were always there when i need you . Either for chat or play or eat . Anything and everything . Without you , i really don't know what to do . I'm so confused in everything that i am now . You guided me as if i'm your real sister . Thank alot my girl . We came up together with the idea of a godfamily together and it's successful ! Thank God .

To my other babies :
You guys also cheered me up many . We do have unhappy times . We share , we tear , we laugh together . We will last yeahhhh ! I love you guys .

2011-11-13T14:47:00.003+08:00

I LOVE MY GODFAMILY ♥

Recently , meet up with my godfamily darlings . It's a wonderful feeling everytime . 5 years and counting . Had godfamily dinner at Jo's house that night . I'm lazy to elaborate what had happen , but it was really awesome . They're most awesome people i had in my life . Without them , my life wouldn't be so high . Meet up soon everyone . I miss you guys !

2011-11-10T15:48:00.002+08:00

Why are you keeping me waiting . Other than wait , it's still wait .

I'm so going to break down .

2011-11-07T19:38:00.002+08:00

Was away from 4 october to 7 october .

4/11 - 5/11 = Collect pay > Javius's house stayover > Sentosa > Back his house .
5/11- 6/11 = Toapayoh > Wengkuan's house stayover
6/11 - 7/11 = Home > Cineleisure > Chompchomp > Jo's house stayover

4th october to 5th october .

Went over in the evening after collecting my pay . Was really not enough for me to survive . Went crazy at his house . He helped me to highlight my hair . The future hairstylist . Next day , woke up early to prepare for our trip to sentosa . It didn't rain and that was like so damn lucky ! He sun-tanned , i sat there and relax and enjoy the music played by some of the church members(whom i don't know) . They played so well . FUCK . I want to get a guitar ! After that headed back to his house cause gotta go back home takecare grandfather .

5th october to 6th october .

Grandfather was alright , lucky . At night , met babe , shawn and Wengkuan for dinner . It was kinda of awkward due to the silence . Went to wk's house after dinner . All were supposed to do art but a few times , were disrupted by poker cards . Lol . Shawn left , left the 3 of us . Help them do some then went to sent babe to the busstop and had heart to heart talk . Was awesome . Walked back to his house and his friend came over to do art . In the end , we 3 played cards till 4am then we went to sleep . They had school in the morning but was late due to overslept and lazyness . Headed home after they went off .

6th october to 7october .

Before meeting girlfriend and my darlings , i rested at home for awhile cause was major tired . Meet them at cine and walked the flea . Decided to go back chompchomp to take away food back to jo's house for dinner . Waited for like one hour before we could reach her house . Damn freaking tired . Stayover her house , had heart to heart talk with especially my girls and of course shawn . Almost break down that night cause i'm really tired . Really . Slept at 4 plus . And we all were suppose to wake up at 6.30am to go eat prata but we didn't cause we woke up late . Had brunch and left her house to tpy and back home .

2011-11-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

I used to smile till i tear . Now , it's just like a unclosed tap which keeps flowing .

It wasn't how it was suppose to be .

2011-11-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

2011-11-01T18:32:00.001+08:00

My heart just hurts that badly .

2011-10-31T23:49:00.001+08:00

2011-10-29T15:52:00.002+08:00

Don't ever break your promise to the one you love .
When i realise , it was all too late .
When i want to turn back , he was already in another one's embrace . Treasure .

2011-10-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

Behind all those fake smiles , are tears . I can't pretend nothing has happen . The scars are bleeding once again . It can never be heal . It really hurts . I'm trying to cover up for everything that i've done . The truth is , it hurts like fuck .

2011-10-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

Who would actually understand how you feel .
I hate that feeling that nobody understands you and accuses you .

2011-10-25T02:15:00.001+08:00

2011-10-24T02:03:00.001+08:00

My love for you is infinity . No matter what , i love you .

2011-10-23T15:11:00.002+08:00

Not only 11.11pm . I miss you every second .

2011-10-21T13:48:00.002+08:00

I agree . I've no confidence at all .
Everything seems so impossible to me .
Everything .

2011-10-14T01:40:00.002+08:00

Yesterday , my two precious babes came over to my place . They have been bugging me to cook for them spaghetti . LOL . Really . DAMN NOISY . Had a awesome and lovely heart to heart talk with them at night . Only managed to sleep around 6am . Couldn't get to bed and i have no idea why . First day of work with my babe . It was really tiring , but okay i guess . Sometimes , people do make mistakes and nobody's perfect . Maybe i'm still not used to it , like seriously .

I still haven get over it .

2011-10-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

2011-10-09T01:36:00.001+08:00

Sometimes , i really regret . If there's a undo button in my life . I'm seriously freaking confused . It's a feeling that not many people will understand . I do not even know how to understand and solve it . I hate myself , i hate my life . I hate everything that had happen . Why is this happening .

2011-10-04T22:37:00.002+08:00

Exam still left maths paper 2 ! Omg . Finally ! And and and , ART IS FREAKING OVER ! FUCK YA ! Happy like hell . Everything gonna be over in an blink of an eye . Tahan Joyce !

2011-10-03T21:09:00.002+08:00

Chemistry and Physic paper is down already . Omg . Tomorrow is art and maths paper 1 . Hopefully i'll be able to do well in maths . Art , i will never want you again . I'm really very tired . I seriously need a break . I can't take it anymore . Art is forever a burden to me . I hate you bitch . Fuck art , seriously .

2011-09-28T15:41:00.002+08:00

I want to travel around the world with you . Will you be the one ?
I've carved your name into my heart . Please stay wherever you're .
I missed the past few chances .

Iloveyou ♥

2011-09-27T23:22:00.002+08:00

This whole entire week will be my study week . Still left 5 more days to the starts of my N level again . Bored , seriously . I hate it so damn load . So torturing . I want to breakfree . It's so painful .

Pain , it's like thousands of knife stabbing into my heart .

2011-09-24T12:38:00.003+08:00

Something is wrong somewhere . It's hurting . I'm so tired .

2011-09-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

I want to be yours , forever . Will you hold me till the end ?

2011-09-20T15:47:00.003+08:00

I want to escape from reality .

2011-09-19T20:38:00.003+08:00

I want guitars badly . After exam , everything after exam . How i wish N level is like tomorrow . I'm seriously draining out of this torturing . Fcuk . I can't absorb anything more . Art is also kind of driving me crazy . Fml . I feel like leaving everything behind , i don't know why but still .. For this entire coming week , i'm so going to concentrate on my N level . There's no more time . I can't breathe .

Dear God ,
please help me to put behind everything .
It's like a ghost who keep haunting me , over and over again .
I need to resist my temptation also .
Amen .

2011-09-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

Thank God it's friday . Finally , friday has arrive ! Woots . Stayed back for art till late afternoon , was kinda of a torture . It's one day nearer to N level , and i haven really absorb all my history notes and information into my brain . Dear brain , please be good to me . I really need you alot . Love you .

2011-09-14T16:49:00.003+08:00

Everything's just like a dream , disappear fast . Two more weeks to N level papers . I'm really very tired . I trying to tahan . I need druggggggggggs to keep me away . Art is definitely taking all my precious time away . I hate art omg , seriously . Really damn tired for this whole entire month , my eyes are calling for help already . Tired die me . Imma go do some maths and science revision already . And yeah , art -.-

2011-09-13T19:53:00.003+08:00

Got back CA's results , it's like a total flunk . Pass 2 out of 6 . What the fish ? For prelim , i'm quite satisfied with my results . Just that i'm kinda of disappointed with my science . It's like roarrr . 73 over 100 ? OMG . So lousy ): Was aiming to get at least A1 not A2 !

2011-09-12T23:09:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to derek .

Representing my cutie , Mr Blue with his 玫瑰花 (: Jokes . Everything was so fast , a blink of an eye . N level coming again in around 2 more weeks . I hope my boyfriend , Hitler , will come out for History exam ! Still obsessed with him as ever . Looking forward for only science paper to come . Prelim results are out either . Fail the usual , humanities . Pathetic . N level please be good to me ! Gonna chiong like mad soon with ♥ . It's the final last lap , everyone let's work hard .

2011-09-11T01:22:00.002+08:00

Went back student care today to help out for the mooncake festival thingy @ tpy west cc . Hohoho . Meet Nelson first , take away lunch and headed back to scc . Played lantern and sparkle at the playground . After everything ended , we ' staff ' played somemore , it's our turnnnn ! Played till 11 around there and headed to mac ( again ) for supper . Wolala . Send them to the taxi stand and then took bus back home !

2011-09-09T21:50:00.002+08:00

Went out with my babes yesterday , had a real fun time together . 9 years and counting . Sweet , loving . Wolalala (: Meeting up with them soon with the others perhaps to study . Next N level paper coming in on 3 October . However i'm looking forward for my science paper . I don't know why either . Mood hasn't been any better since then . FML for everything .

2011-09-05T00:11:00.002+08:00

It's 12.20 am right now . N level marks the start today .
Totally nervous for it but also excited for it . However , it's the final lap .
Going to go crazy for social studies because i only studied like 2 chapters so far . Fml man . Hopefull will spot the correct question .
Hah , wishing and pray hard for everyone , Good luck to all . All the best !

2011-09-03T13:20:00.001+08:00

Fuck my life .

2011-08-30T12:03:00.002+08:00

Many people say things happen naturally , everything is being planned by God , everything happen when there's miracle , things cause because of it's purpose . But how does things happen ? Why do human talk , eat , see . Why do we have eyes . It has many different answer to it . Depends how you see it . Many things happen for many reasons . But when things happen and you do not know the reason why , that really hurts the most .

2011-08-28T10:23:00.003+08:00

Prelim's over , N level coming . I haven even start to revise for my social studies . Humanities is such a bitch . I don't have any confidence to pass my humans at all . However , all the best people ! Holiday from Saturday to Tuesday , then Friday to Sunday . Monday start of N level already , FML . For the past few days , stayed over at Jovell's house till friday . Yesterday went out study with fanny , but headed to her house and slack . Her doggy is so cute (: HAHAH . Need to chiong social studies already . Goodbye !

2011-08-24T19:34:00.001+08:00

2011-08-21T12:40:00.001+08:00

2011-08-20T16:33:00.003+08:00

I really feel like dying at this point of time . Exams are still not over .

Fuck my life . Mood hasn't been really good these few days .

2011-08-18T20:10:00.001+08:00

2011-08-15T21:00:00.002+08:00

Got back English and Chinese prelim paper already . Kinda of disappointed though but expected to not do well . Roarrrrrrrrrr , imma afraid for n levels . Crap . I don't wanna get into sec 5 still . I hate it . Art prelim is like next friday and i haven been doing anything till now . Fuck , how am i going to finish . I doubt i can finish everything by next week . Prelims is such a headache .

2011-08-14T20:42:00.003+08:00

Home > Church > Toa Payoh > Home .

Slept @ 6am this morning , freaking tired now . Went to kor's church , for service and to support him for his audition . All the best for him , hopefully he's in . #PRAY ! I wanna serve the Lord by singing Praise and worship to him . He's The Greatest (: During service , we laugh and he spammed my phone like crazy . Stayed in church till around 2 , left to toa payoh for lunch @ Sizzles . Had a little talk with him , lunch was damn full . It's like gonna burst anytime . ROARRR . Went home and left for awhile and back to work . Blog in tomorrow (:

Jealousy fucking killed me all the time . I hate that feeling .
Why . I don't understand . I can't accept it but i got to force myself to .
True hurts . So do I .

2011-08-13T17:28:00.002+08:00

Everything was so mixed up , feelings especially . Had heart to heart talk with babe last night . Even though i've said it , it's still up there . It can't be forgotten easily . It's not just like a piece of blank paper . It more than what a blank paper can say . Why . Why do guys being so bastards . Fuck your life . Fuck everything .

2011-08-12T14:55:00.002+08:00

Even if i sleep early or late in the night , I will still feel very tired . I'm totally drained out . I miss you . You're the only guy who makes me feel so excited for everything that we're going through . Lying myself saying that i don't miss you . It really hurts . I hate myself , i hate you too .

2011-08-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

Had sushi today with cheryl @ bishan . So freaking full , like omg . Stomach was like can burst anytime . Omg . Full to the max . It has been so long since i last had my buffet . Think that's like my last buffet for the next 4 months . Save moneyyy . There's so many thing that i needed to buy . Saving time (:

2011-08-04T16:48:00.002+08:00

I just wanna get myself , drunk . I miss you so much i needed to be . There's always i question stuck in my head that i long wanted to ask you .
Fuck it . Everything was that simple , but you make it hard for me to believe .
I hate you .

2011-08-03T16:41:00.004+08:00

Prelims started today , everything marks the start of today .
Art is still incomplete , as ever .

2011-07-24T14:47:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday My Dearest Girlfriend-Hoh ♥
Went over to her house with Fanny , Joel and lastly Weihao . Others couldn't make it for her party . Hope one day everyone will be gathered together man ! Longing for that ! We went over her house early to prepare a small surprise for her . She was so touched by what we'd gave her ! Awww ♥ BBQ for dinner . I was like servant for Joel and Fanny ! JOKES MAN ! While bbq-ing , my face and hand was like burning , damn freaking hot siol . Sat down and chat with Girlfriend and my sweethearts . Lucky draw time , like omg . Jovell was trying to pick the 3 of us up and do some idk what stuff . Kinda of shy uh , up there i mean . We tried to use ' Weihao ' as an excuses but it failed . HAHAHAH . After awhile , we went to pick weihao . Had alittle rest and Jovell took all the letters that we all wrote during our primary school days into the room . We had a good laugh man ! We all definitely enjoyed it manyyyyyy . It's like repeating our years back then . About to go back , girlfriend's dad send us to nex and we all cabbed home . It's an awesome meeting ! DAMN HELL YEAH ! Just sad that i did not stayover . Hah .

2011-07-16T12:47:00.003+08:00

I know he's there for me .
Bless the people who're having their major exams this year .
Give them all your blessings .

2011-07-14T19:21:00.002+08:00

Hope everything's okay .

2011-07-12T22:15:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Shawn Hoh ! (:

2011-07-10T21:20:00.002+08:00

I prefer this kinda of fashion art rather than the art that i'm having currently . I still didn't do anything for my art . I can't finish . I hate art . God damn . Faster end this ! I'm suffering . Though ' no pain no gain ' . I don't wanna gain anything .

2011-07-09T21:02:00.003+08:00

Seriously , what's wrong with the people right now . Keep things behind and talk . N level oral has just past , hopefully everything goes well . Prelims are round the corner . Seriously need to start studying , like really NOW . Facebook , you're so freaking tempting .

2011-07-08T17:57:00.002+08:00

Fuck art to the core man . Supposed today is the last day , i'm seriously pissed with the fucking teacher . Omg luh . Asshole(s) . Seriously need chiong already , fuck man . Arggggggg ! Never mind . These few days kind of interested in poker cards . Still learning how to play poker . ROARRRR !

2011-07-04T22:08:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to Jane cousin ♥

Today's youth day , extra holiday for us youth . HAHAH .
Some poly students were like saying that they do not have youth day holiday means that they're old . LOL (:

2011-07-03T01:26:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JIAWEI !

Hohoho , she's my babe man ! Meet her , Cheryl , Jeyla , Benjamin at sentosa . As a celebration , we all went to sentosa to celebrate her birthday . It's was kinda of awkward though , but after that everything seems fine . Our place was just right in front of azzura . Feel like going to club with my babes that point of time . After N levels , chiong club for the win ! Everything was successful but my surprise for her wasn't successful . Feel bad though . Gonna meet them up soon i guess , for art supposed . Faster art coursework deadline . Boring to the max .

2011-07-01T17:58:00.003+08:00

2011-06-28T17:35:00.002+08:00

Went out with my god-family members . Woots , they're madly awesome (: But ever since , we didn't really have a complete god-family outing before , as in the amount of people . My love for them can never be described .

2011-06-27T17:58:00.002+08:00

Today is the First day of school reopen . Wasn't bad but it will be bad sooner or later . Art is seriously killing me . Because of it , i don't even wanna continue my secondary 5 studies . The teacher in charge makes me hate art either . Seriously , i hate art _l_

2011-06-20T14:11:00.003+08:00

There's so many different story in my life , which part would you want to hear . This is life , everyone gotta face the fact .

2011-06-19T01:42:00.002+08:00

Happy Father's Day ♥

Went out with Babe to east coast at night . The wind was freaking awesome . Bought mac and sat at the stone-y area . But the place where we settle down has quite many sea-cockroach . We were like keep shifting ourselves , sitting uncomfortably . We walk our way to the bedok jetty , lay down and starring at the stars . It has millions of them shining brightly at us . After awhile , we walk our way back to the bus stop and took bus back home (:

2011-06-17T15:24:00.003+08:00

This coming week is officially the last week of june holiday . Crap . It's just so fast . Everything . There's definitely fun but there's also sadness . Went east coast park with the kids . They're awesome , at least they bring joy to my life .

Trying to smile again is really hard . Grandma has left us , proceed to heaven . Accompanying God above . May she rest in peace .

2011-06-13T15:22:00.002+08:00

Stayover-ed at Girlf-Ho's place on saturday . Seriously love her ttm . There were so many things that we talk about , almost everything that happen in our primary days . Shall meet up with her and other godfamily members soon (: Misses them !

2011-06-10T23:33:00.004+08:00

East coast park with the kids was awesome just that it's was so sunny , we were melting while on the way there . The kids were all so enthusiastic ttm . My cutie requested to sit beside me , he lie on me and slept for awhile . HAHAH , so cute . Reached there , the children were separated into groups . We , the staff all went to enjoy coffee bean . Like a awesome only . Auntie's fried rice was awesome too (: Me and zhanpeng went to rent bike and cycle all the way till bedok jetty . It rain less than five minutes , it's gone . Everyone gathered for prize presentation and debrief and went back to scc (: What a tiring day but i definitely i enjoyed my day with them ♥

2011-06-08T23:19:00.001+08:00

I have a new hobbie . Love it to the core (:

2011-06-06T20:11:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i don't want to look back , but the flashbacks force me to . The pain , it's just too strong that makes me tear over and over again over the same reason . If you know that you can't commit , don't make the promise that you can .

Happiness isn't about all .

2011-06-05T17:45:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Scott Bro ! (:

She's my twin sister . Hah , Joyceee my dear girl ! Had been going out with her quite often . Went to Marina country club with her and other guys yesterday . Had sakura for dinner . The smoke was like omg and it's freaking damn hot . ROAR . Slack and walk around . Left there at 11++ . Took a bus from sengkang back to serangoon but alighted at hougang . Walk with joyce from hougang back to ang mo kio . Shiok-ing experience . Stayed over at her house . Left in the morning and went home . Headed to church just now , had fellowship with them as well . Resting at home now , gonna have dinner at town . I'm full and hungry . Crap .

2011-06-03T21:03:00.001+08:00

" Good shoes bring you to good places "

2011-06-02T23:45:00.001+08:00

My cute little student (:

2011-05-29T18:10:00.002+08:00

Hate been going out with my twin joyce and people from the chalet . Tired . I need some sleep . All the people who're having their O level chinese tomorrow ' All the best and do your best ! God bless ! ' .

I don't understand , everything that is going round my head . You don't understand , so just shut the fuck up .

2011-05-27T11:20:00.002+08:00

Was volunteering at scc yesterday . Met this boy , Luke . He is AWESOME-LY cute to the max . He's sensible too (: hahah , * obsessed ! * During holiday , gonna be spending time with them plus my undone works ESPECIALLY ART . Omgf , dying . Had ptc today , it seriously suck but at least there are good remarks . Later going out with Godfamily members (: So miss them ! Should i go cg with sylvia and after that trained down to downtown with joyceee ? Hmmmm . I've no idea . My dear Sylvia wanna talk to me ! Same here . I miss her yeah !

2011-05-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

I miss the fun that we both had . Going to go out with her soon every saturday man plus church too ! Everyone has something untold-ed . And most of them , are personal . I've many , i hate it and miss it . I've no choice .